broken 'Spirit'

I looked up flights yesterday to see if Kevin and I could plan a trip to FINALLY see our Canadian families... there were no available dates in October, November or December 😞 I quickly remembered the flights that I have been "postponing" for our good friends Ed & Andrea and for our son Josh. Josh's flight was meant for Easter of 2020 which obviously couldn't happen and Ed/Andrea were in Myrtle Beach March of 2020 when we all joked about this COVID business being over by Fall of 2020. So they bought flights to come back in September. I switched all 3 flights to May 2021 and I received an email with a Reservation Credit stating I had until September 30th to rebook the flights with travel dates of no later than December 31st 2021. This got me thinking, maybe I could plan for Canadian Thanksgiving (second Monday in October). I texted the airline this morning and they said they did not have flights available for those dates. I asked what dates they did have; they said they don't see any flights from that destination. I asked when that would change; they said they do not know. I asked for my money back (technically mine and Ed/Andrea's money); they said they don't give refunds on reservation credits. I am currently in a battle with Spirit Airlines. I have submitted a lengthy complaint as to why or how they can hold onto the money when THEY have removed the destination from their flight schedule. The anger about the money has overshadowed how I really feel... Spirit Airlines has completely and totally broken my heart. I thought things were looking up (pardon the pun). Andrea informed me that Ontario has entered Stage 3 of reopening - congratulations to all Gym's and Salons! It's been a loooooong time coming. All I want to do is hug my son, complain and laugh with my in-laws over the kitchen table, enjoy a Tim Horton's French Vanilla while visiting Kim at the insurance office, chase my best friend Tracy's kids around her house until they give me a kiss (or at least a fist bump). Kevin tried to calm me down, reminding me that 'this to, shall pass' and we still have video chats but you can't do the things I have listed through a device. It's not the same and I am more than fed up, I am truly angry and my spirit is broken; not just for our personal heartache but for EVERYONE!!! Every family that thought it would be days or weeks until they could be together and it turned into months; coming up on YEARS of being torn apart. I am having my 5-minute pity party right now, letting the tears run down my face for a little while and then I will pick myself up and figure out how to make the best of what options I have left. It's not over until the fat lady sings and I still need singing lessons before I can confidently perform.