Creature of Habit

All 52 Sunday's look the same... sleep in (usually 8am), make coffee, load or unload (or both) the dishwasher, and start the laundry. Sunday is also a day that I try to see the few family members I have that live nearby, especially since my niece and nephew are growing up waaaay too fast, making me wish I could stop time for a little while. Today is no different and yet I feel different. Maybe its because we just got the news that replacing our broken air conditioner unit is going to cost $5392 or maybe its because we are entering the 4th quarter of the year and I have my mind taxes, Christmas Cards, a possible Christmas party/gathering with our employees, and our cautiously optimistic planned trip to Canada. I can usually decipher the meaning behind the feelings I have but today is just different somehow. Here's what I do know: I am grateful for routine because it let's me relax and think. I love the quiet time I get to write down my thoughts because I instantly feel better when I allow the words to fill the page. I often get stuck thinking too far ahead and I hear the voice of my dear friend Naina, reminding me to train my thoughts and my mind to be present in the NOW, that worry is a waste of precious energy. I truly believe my ability plan, my ambition and my persistence are mostly blessings but sometimes they are curses. Without having to be told, I know some people find it super annoying and others (like me) find it comforting to knowing what to expect and to be organized in order to meet expectations (my own expectations as well as others). My husband Kevin is a saint, he puts up with ALL of my crazy and never makes me feel like I am extra. Kevin is my risk taker, he takes the wheel on almost all of our big life-changing decisions. I am the one that works out every what-if scenario, creating plans A, B, C, D and sometimes E. He also trusts me enough to take care of all the finances, he is more than capable to do it himself but he doesn't like talking to people (😂). It's only Sunday morning so I should stop daydreaming about things like retirement, moving to Portugal or trying to plan how to buy into the air conditioning business. The only unanswered question I have left is whether I should vacuum now or be lazy and wait a bit longer?