Stress = Me

I am a ball of nerves lately, I don't want to get into the reasons because it does not help anyone to speculate. Life throws curve balls and I feel like we are stuck in a never-ending baseball game against the Blue Jays (or the Braves, if you're American), going into the 89th inning; I am losing my grip. Whenever I feel this way, helpless and motivated to do SOMETHING, yet paralyzed with uncertainty and lack of control; my body starts to show signs of falling apart. Behind my knees and the inside of my elbows are burning, almost like the tendons are being pulled apart. My eyes are raw, they burn when they are open and closing them brings little to no comfort. My face is breaking out like a teenager but the wrinkles are deeper, especially the forehead and in-between my eyebrows. Kevin hasn't said so, but I think I am grinding my teeth in the few precious hours I get of sleep. I know this because my jaw is tight and sore in the morning. I decided to take a long, hot, epsom salt bath last night, thinking it couldn't hurt to shut my brain off and attempt to relax, maybe catch up on my book (Stephanie Meyer - Midnight Sun). Kevin came to check on me, which is what he usually does if I've been in there for over an hour and that's when I dropped my cell phone in the water 🤦🏽‍♀️. We saved it, I say we because I had to get Kevin to put my phone in some rice. Luckily, the phone is fine, which is a small miracle in my opinion (going to a cell phone store is almost as dreadful as visiting the dentist). I've always been a believer of 'fake it, till you make it', so my goal now, is to stay strong no matter what. Take steps, every day, to only make things better, not worse. All prayers, positive vibes and affirmations are more than appreciated. Those of you who let me lean on you, thank you. I promise to return the favor, when you need me 💞