UP week 20

A few revelations this week, I was more active than I have been in the last month; getting my home and the shop ready for visitors. At work we had our first ever Demonstration Day with a new product. It was successful but I was beat down; running around cleaning, lifting, moving, and organizing. All that movement brought on some discoveries... I found new chaffing places on my body. First is the area where the bottom of my butt cheeks rub against each other AND my inner legs. Second, is my lips (not the one's on my face🙄). My weight has officially made me physically uncomfortable and to make matters worse, I know it has affected my sex drive. I don't particularly enjoy getting naked, especially during day light hours (PS: Daylight Savings is a week from today, HELLO Spring!). I have to give credit where credit is due, my husband Kevin is freaking awesome. He makes me feel wanted, desired and never hesitates to compliment me even when I look like hot garbage. The last few weekends have included a whole lot of travelling, celebrations and excuses, all things detrimental to food choices. I mentioned, in a post or three ago, that I signed up for a weight loss program. It had curated daily follow-along workout videos that I completed for 4 days. I also received a professional meal plan. Today was the first day I looked at the 'shopping list' and I made a silent commitment to do better. Writing this down now makes me laugh because I did the grocery shopping online and had it delivered 😂 Don't judge me! I helped the delivery guy carry the items from his trunk into the shop, I'm not THAT lazy. Shortly after bringing the food home (which includes a few flights of stairs btw) and putting it all away, I realized that I don't know how to cook. I read and reread the recipes and every other ingredient was in a different language. Like rocket?! I asked Kevin, what the hell is rocket and why do I need 200 grams of rocket in my Greek salad? (after a quick google search, we found out its a leafy green like Arugula). I did weigh myself today, 206.8lbs, I'm not mad about it. I just have to get out of this funk, I have to give myself the luxury of time and energy. One big plus this past week is I had only one coffee, ONE COFFEE all week long. I want to cut it out completely because it has been such a crutch for me. I seem to always convince myself that 'it's just coffee' but honestly, I make it like a dessert or a treat with flavors, sugar and cream. Not anymore. I am ready for change. Bring on the next weigh-in; let's see what surprises come out of the next 7 days.