UP week 25

It's Easter, my first major holiday since my renewed vow of clean-eating. Celebrations and memories are often collectively remembered by two major points: who was there and what did you eat. I convinced myself that I could take a bite here and there, be polite to all those who worked hard at preparing the feast but ultimately, I would refrain from overindulgence. I have always been honest with this blog and its 20+ readers so why would I lie now... they had a waffle charcuterie board! After eating three mini waffles topped with strawberries, blueberries and whipped cream; I ate at least 4 mini muffins made with Cinnamon Toast Crunch pancake batter and a piece of sausage baked into each one. Yes, you should read that sentence again, I said Cinnamon Toast Crunch pancake batter in a mini-muffin with baked-in sausage 🤤. Add a side of smoked meat, ham and hashbrown casserole; I am sitting here with a gut that threatens to touch my keyboard. I'm pretty sure everyone at the table thought something naughty was going on behind the scenes because I could not stop moaning and groaning with every bite. The sugar crash is only hitting me now, I feel sluggish and my eyes are super heavy. I truly hope today's mountain of carbs will help me poop because if a bowel movement doesn't happen soon, this will be my third day of being full of shit (literally). As for the scale this morning, I was down again, not by much - 193.6lbs. I'm good with one pound lost but today has to be a rare occurrence. I cannot fall back into those eating habits. Sweets are such a trigger for me. They give me a jolt of excitement and a serious case of the giggles but they make me feel crappy physically (that's the medical terminology). The cycle of feeling like crap will inevitably land me back in the 200's if I'm not careful. I hate feeling like a prisoner in my body, like a slave to my taste buds. I want to be free of the hold that (bad) food has over me.

Speaking of prisoner, I keep forgetting to mention that my penpal from the California Corrections System did, in fact, write me back. He is very friendly and polite and I do want to send him another letter but I haven't had the time. His letter was hand written, one page, front and back, on lined paper. The date on the letter was Jan 22nd but the postage said Feb 23rd so it obviously takes a long time to get through the proper channels. I feel horrible that we are already in April and I have not responded but I need time to hand write my next letter to match his effort and I also don't know exactly what I'm going to say. I'm sure the words will come to me; as they always do. I promise to make it happen this week, committing to it in my weekly blog means I have to do it or face the wrath of my 20+ readers next Sunday 😅. Happy Easter to all, and to all a good night 😘